Its a subject i really need to write down about as this area has been the hardest to adjust too. So after 20 old years i found myself back on the dating game and OMG what a rude awakening i have found it . I first went through the i shall throw myself at anybody who gave me a smile and if they spoke as well i thought Helen your in here even if i totally didnt even fancy him, , thankfully that phase was short lived and as you would expect unsuccessful, I suppose i should explain that the end of my marriage was very ugly with one party cheating on other party and me being the party who was not cheating, lessoned learnt there i think. SO hopefully that will explain a little of my frame of mind . So onto next phase , friendship is the way to go, easy, less stressful and to certain extent i feel i may have cracked this area as i have found a really good male mate who has been there for me through the dark days and nights , though it has been a little bumpy as i may have declared how i felt for him after 1 encounter but thankfully he has stood by my little quirky ways and fixed my satelitte on many occasions, though never got round to checking my oil (must add that to wish list, learn how to check oil but i did check my tyres myself but lost the little cap on one wheel but hey i did it ) , so yep i have a male friend ,
So than i thought , lets go online and make friends online and friends is not the phrase i would give it, but i did enjoy the few months i did it. I could not bring myself to meet anyone but enjoyed chatting and some were very funny and very weird, Some guys just wanted to webcam ummm i wonder why? one had a picture of pegs and for the life of me i could not see why , so i asked him,well now i know but ewww i wish i did not . Than one man decided to delete me after chatting for a few months and i got upset and it was than that i thought wait a minute i did not even know him and im upset , so that was the end of the internet encounters.
Than i had my first official date , did it go well, yea i suppose it did other than this silly girl at the table nextdoor preceded to tell me she could not possibly eat as much as i just did, thanks for that . Now i look like someone who eats loads , well actually i probably do eat too much, she was drunk and bigger than me , so i decided i would not give my usual response which would involve a finger and a few choice words as i was trying impress my date . Did i get a second date .... Nope , ah well not so good than.
Than, yes theres more , i went on a day date , my feet ached at the end of that we walked everywhere but that poor little sausage looked and sounded like my ex and well not going there again , so that was it.
So where am i now, well i have a cat shes all i want at the moment but i am sure i will have more encounters to write here .about