Shall I stay or shall I go?

I'm starting this post on Saturday evening prior to flying out tomorrow to join my Husband at our new little home in Spain. As I feared he has gone completely feral. We spoke last night and he has really got into the Spanish life and does not want to come home. I pointed out that we had a mortgage to attend to and he reluctantly agreed to start looking at booking a ferry home. The dog is happy too after being rather put out at first, and really likes her new home and the long beach walks, despite the large number of ticks she has aquired over the last 4 weeks. I have been keeping the home fires burning here, but I must admit I am really looking forward to my 16 days away. There is one thing I hate about going away though, and it's the thought that I'll be missing out on my life here. It's a bit like feeling that you have died, there is a gap where life goes on without you, and quite frankly I feel as though everything should be put on hold until I get back and can take up the reins again. I'll continue this post when I've been in Estepona for a few days and see how I feel then.........

.......I am writing this part of the blog on my iPad overlooking the pool. I won't be able to upload until until I'm back in Blighty because we don't have wi-fi here yet. This is a good thing on the whole because there is no temptation to check emails and therefore 'just do a bit of work', and no TV either.

I am at the beginning of my second week, and James is in his fifth week. He has been very happy bumbling around with the dog doing the renovation work, but I can already see the tension creeping up on him as he nears the end of his stay.

I have also been very happy and unstressed, but in the last few days I have begun to feel I need a bit more to do. I'm quite surprised because I really am excellent at doing nothing at all, and I've read a lot of books, but perhaps I'm not quite ready to retire fully yet.

...Well I'm back in Tunbridge Wells again, it's cold and wet and windy, - God, I miss Spain!!